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(pick up a knife) [25 Jan 2005|03:16pm] [ mood | awake ] and out of the dark abyss i climb to edit my lj lol i felt like updating dont know y but just felt like itdfs things are good still confused but happy

(4 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) [03 Oct 2004|12:30pm] [ mood | awake ] sup guys havent updated in a long time but felt like saying hey maybe ill have something juice next time

(3 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) [20 Feb 2004|05:51pm] howdy kathleen

(pick up a knife) [09 Jan 2004|10:46pm] Disorder Rating Paranoid: Very High Schizoid: High Schizotypal: High Antisocial: Low Borderline: Moderate Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: High Dependent: High Obsessive-Compulsive: High -- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

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(6 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) hold on everyone out there [04 Jan 2004|11:57am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | good charlotte - hold on ] This world This world is cold But you don't You don't have to go You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care You're mother's gone and your father hits you This pain you cannot bear But we all bleed the same way as you do And we all have the same things to go through Hold on if you feel like letting go Hold on it gets better than you know Your days You say they're way too long And your nights You can't sleep at all Hold on And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to no more And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to no more But we all bleed the same way as you do And we all have the same things to go through Hold on if you feel like letting go Hold on it gets better than you know Don't stop looking, you're one step closer Don't stop searching, it's not over Hold on What are you looking for? What are you waiting for? Do you know what you're doing to me? Go ahead...What are you waiting for? Hold on if you feel like letting go Hold on it gets better than you know Don't stop looking, you're one step closer Don't stop searching, it's not over Hold on if you feel like letting go Hold on it gets better than you know Hold on

(9 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) A Can of Worms [27 Dec 2003|02:35pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | #3 - Last Call for Homocide ] This shit is fucking gay. I now have a parent that hates me for the craziest and stupidest reason of all. Ryans mom now hates me and Brian cause we were asleep at Ryan and we wake up to her shouting curse words at us. Then I found out the toilet was over flowing and she blames us for not telling her. WE WERE FUCKING SLEEPING. Its not like we knew. And Ryan wasnt there he had gone to Ashly's so he couldnt tell her. So yeah she hates me for sleeping and not being aware of my surroundings while I sleep. Even better news starting tonight I have to stay at their house for a few days cause my parent are goin out of town. I swear if she makes any bitchy comment to me or anything I'll just fucking leave. I'll go stay with Brian or Amy or someone. Honestly I don't see what I've done wrong and neither does Brian. Grr

(pick up a knife) [25 Dec 2003|01:42pm] Music Mask Please rate my quiz for me thanks and I hope you had fun What mask should you wear?(new 19 outcomes with pics) brought to you by Quizilla

(1 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) damn kids [24 Dec 2003|11:25pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | seattle was a riot - anti flag ] Well today was ok, spent most of the day doing house work or sitting on my ass alone being lazy. Then some people came over I opened a couple of presents (loved amys the best). Then went to Ryans and the reason im aggravated happened on the way back. I was walking on the side walk and a car drove by. I turned around and saw them driving up onto Ryans curb and start running over the luminarias. WHAT THE FUCK is that about that really pisses me off. This is supposed to be a time of good will and people showing fellowship with one another and heres this jackass destroying a tradtion that is well respected, and enjoyed. Then when i hoped the fence into my front yard i heard all these kids honking and shouting vulgar language sounding like they were drunk. This really upsets me how stupid the human species truely is. Some individuals control emotions of stupidity better then others and try to help. But then you get some idiots (like the ones mentioned above) that try to ruin a time when we should pull most together and try to show compassion. Instead they show how low the human race is for even a wild animal would do such things for no reason and unpreterbed. That just really pisses me off. Makes me want to hunt those people down and raise the populations iq to that of above a virus.

(5 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) black and blue heart [21 Dec 2003|11:07am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | afi - the leaving song ] I'm so fucked up. I don't know whats wrong with me. I'm just so depressed right now, and there is no reason. Yesterday wasn't that bad, no reason for someone normal to cry themselves to sleep like I did. That was the first time in a while that I've done that. I just curled up in a ball, hugged snowy, and cried until snowy and my pillow were soaked. Then this morning me and my parents got in a really big fight about church and other stuff. It just seems like nothings going right. But thats still no reason to cry. I mean what the fuck is wrong with me. I'm not like normal people. I don't deserve to be around them. I should be cast away so normal people won't have to put up with me. I don't want any comments to this entry please. i don't need any sympathy comments or words of encouragement. I prolly wont read them anyways, so don't make the effort. It will be fruitless. Oh yeah . . . 4 days until Christmas. Maybe things will get better by them. I hope . . .

(6 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) just something i wrote [02 Dec 2003|04:32pm] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | hands down - dashboard confessionals ] the night is so calm the moon is so bright as i lie here with you on this wonderful night we are all alone theres no one around only the stars may see us tonight so lets fly into the sky where we can dance with the stars our hearts are one, as we lay close ive found my heaven on earth the world starts spinning as your lips touch mine im falling, im falling, im falling in love with you so let me fall into your heart where i know i am safe my heart is yours, as you kiss me ive found my heaven on earth the sun comes up and your still here the night is gone for now we must go on with our lives but my heart is still yours so i fly into the night where im dancing with you in the stars my heart skips now as i remember your kiss ive found my heaven on earth so i fall into your heart where i know i am loved my heart is yours, as we lay close ive found my heaven on earth ive found my heaven on earth im waiting for my heaven on earth i love my heaven on earth

(6 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) ich leibe dich [29 Nov 2003|11:41pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | rapid hope loss - dashboard confessionals ] boy i havent written a true entry in forever ive just been busy and havent felt the need to express anything im feeling in here but ive been getting a lot of complaints and constantly being harrassed about it so i guess i will if it will get people off my back even though i doubt after a few lines of reading anyone will want to continue it but who cares so here goes hmmm . . . well lets see whats been goin on since the last time i updated no more football games thank the lord lol went to louisiana for thanksgiving and yes they do have the best food mmm my aunt virginia madee this awesome gumba the night before thanksgiving and then an awesome stuffing for thanksgiving it was great food but i really missed amy oh dont think ive mentioned her in this we went out last year for about a month and have been friends since 9th grade things are going so great between us its been nearly a month and me and her are so in love i know some people are thinking yeah right they havent been dating long enough but ive known her so long and me and her can both tell that we love each other its so easy to talk to her even my parents noticed that i talk to her more than any other girl ive ever dated which is awesome im just myself around her not too shy not trying to showoff just me . . . hmm what else to talk about i just finished the prophet it was really good i recomend it to everyone it gave me a new outlook on a lot of issues and helped me to think about other ones hmmm . . . ::pokes head:: think think cant really think of anything else to say life is goin great thanx to a lot of things some that everyone knows some that just a few and i cant really think of anything so im going adios

(pick up a knife) [23 Nov 2003|10:22am] YOU'RE DOPEY! Which One of the Seven Dwarfs Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

(pick up a knife) [20 Nov 2003|04:55pm] YELLOW You are very perceptive and smart. You are clear and to the point and have a great sense of humor. You are always learning and searching for understanding. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

(5 stabbed my heart | pick up a knife) I TELL THE TRUTH [17 Nov 2003|10:11pm] [ mood | amused ] BRIAN IS THE COOLEST MOTHER FUCKER AROUND.

(pick up a knife) [13 Nov 2003|08:07pm] [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<text="#f8f9c8">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <center> <text="#F8F9C8" link="#AAAFFF" vlink="#E42866" alink="#008800" leftmargin="5"> <a href="http://www.umich.edu/~rorder/animaniquiz.html">Which Animaniacs Character are You?<br> <img src="http://www.umich.edu/~rorder/yakko.gif" border=0></a> <h6>Talkative, huh? Perhaps sing-ative would be more appropriate, actually. When people don't understand something, it usually drives you to cutting, sarcastic remarks. Your other extreme is bursting into song with almost no prompting, often to explain complex ideas. No one knows quite what you are, exactly. You have made many "special" friends, and there's baloney in your slacks. <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/rinnaldo"><br>Click here to see my Livejournal.</a></h6> </center>

(pick up a knife) [13 Nov 2003|06:36pm] My inner child is sixteen years old! Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while adults might just accept that, I know something's gotta change. And it's gonna change, just as soon as I become an adult and get some power of my own. How Old is Your Inner Child? brought to you by Quizilla

(pick up a knife) [12 Nov 2003|07:57pm] You are a Bavarian. What's your Inner European? brought to you by Quizilla

(pick up a knife) the description fits even if i like dr pepper better [10 Nov 2003|04:21pm] Congratulations, your Sprite! You are shy and quiet, even if it doesn't seem like it. But, when people get to know you, the spicy part of you takes over! Try and be open to all people, and be friendly and couragious, because it might just pay off... What Soda Pop are you? brought to you by Quizilla

(pick up a knife) [10 Nov 2003|04:18pm] you regret alot of what you have done. you also realize that life is a learning experience and mistakes happen. but you would change things if you could. think about your regrets and why you have them, you cant move on if your past is holding you back. are you full of regrets? brought to you by Quizilla

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